Friday, July 22, 2011

Five Months

...and so the saga continues, not really.  FIVE MONTHS!  Time seems to be a flyin'!  Before you know it my contract will be up and I better have a plan.  It's probably time to start considering what I might be doing when the day comes for me to leave my humble abode here in Seoul.  Oh decisions decisions.  This won't be easy.

I'm just being me...having fun while making friends.  Sometimes I do find it a bit difficult with the part where I make new friends.  My problem is that I haven't figured out how to balance the groups, especially since I continue making new ones.  I can't hang out with them all at once, so it forces me to choose.  If any of you know me, you know that can be a difficult decision since I am indecisive and pretty much would like to do everything.  I just have to learn how to prioritize, but then I feel bad when I am forced to decline the other peeps I decide not to hang out with.  Oh first world problems.

A few things are changing at school...a South African coworker is marrying his Korean girlfriend this weekend, after five months a Canadian coworker is moving to Scotland where his girlfriend just started grad school, another Canadian coworker is leaving to go back home (sad)...that's not all of them, but I'll spare you the rest.  Of course, all of this will bring in new faces and possibly new friendships.

On a different note, I have a couple of exciting trips coming up...yay!  There's the Boryeong Mud Festival this weekend, which will be a blast...there will be a whole lotta craziness going on!  =)  Then off to TOKYO for summer vacation, July 30th to August 7th...can't wait!  I'm going with Steph, my friend/co-worker.  We were originally planning on either going to Thailand or Vietnam, but we decided at the last minute (sitting in front of the travel agent, which is the best way to book airplane tix here in Korea) on TOKYO.  I've always wanted to go to Japan, well everywhere for that matter.  So now I'm getting my chance.  There may be a couple of other small trips next month...we'll see where the chips fall.  You have one life, so make the most of it.  That I plan on doing...yessiree!  Marking things off of my bucket list while adding a few more at the same time.

Looking over the Han River at Yeouido Park during my bike ride earlier this evening.  Riding along the river is very relaxing...such beautiful scenery.

"We travel, initially, to lose ourselves; and we travel, next, to find ourselves. We travel to open our hearts and eyes and learn more about the world than our newspapers will accommodate. We travel to bring what little we can, in our ignorance and knowledge, to those parts of the globe whose riches are differently dispersed. And we travel, in essence, to become young fools again-to slow time down and get taken in, and fall in love once more." 
~Pico Iyer, "Why We Travel"

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Nothing Lasts Forever...

Which is very unfortunate for certain things.   (Warning, this is a very personal post…read at your own discretion)  IF, for some miraculous reason, someone would ever want to marry me, I would want it to last forever…till death do us part.  Call me na├»ve.  My life has turned into a catch-22.  I would love to get married and have children, with the right person who would be silly enough to stay with me.  Let’s face it, I’ve made it rather difficult for that to possibly happen, especially with my current lifestyle.  I only want it to happen once, but I can’t control how the other person feels and wouldn’t want to.  My parents are divorced and it still has an affect on me.  Once upon a time, it almost happened for me.  The fact that I called off a wedding with a month to spare may be a deal breaker for anyone remotely interested in me, and I can understand.  To this day, I don’t regret my decision of not going through with it.  Somehow I could see into the future and see the relationship not lasting.  My friends knew we weren’t right for each other and were happy about my decision.  I had not ruled children out of the question and I couldn’t see him as the kind of father that I wanted.  Plus, I fell out of love and I wanted more out of life.  I want to travel the world and would love to have someone to experience those moments with me, but I just don’t see it happening.  One time I became a caged bird and gave up many things, changed who I was, for a guy.  The life was sucked out of me.  (That relationship has made me appreciate, and only go for, the truly/genuinely nice guys.)  Since then, I have made a vow to myself that I would never let that happen again.  Tired of experiencing heartbreaks...

You have one life, make the most of it.  You're never too young, or old, to have a "bucket list" only counts if you actually work on your list.  

"If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours." ~Henry David Thoreau